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Hey LJland,
Mar. 4th, 2016 02:49 pmSo about 6 weeks ago, I had brunch with who Blake and I refer to as, "the Scratching Post kids" because well, they are. When I was doing the panty girl thing and dating Blake, we were "grown ups" compared to the people we had lunch with, who were teenagers at the time, even though in reality we were/are kids too.
Anyway...
The subject of Live Journal came up and everyone's reaction was the same: "OH!" along with the cringiest face imaginable. Then came the lamenting of how awful they all used to be, but how funny at the same time. My friend Mike, who I consider a pretty smart person with a level head who also shares my passion for passion, said that he printed his out and he deleted his LJ. He read it and laughed at how dumb he was, put it on a shelf and that chapter of his life is over. So moving right along...
This stuck with me.
At first I was aghast at the idea. My first post in this LJ was made July 12th, 2001 and I've written almost 6000 entries that average about 2000 words each. It would be impossible to print my Live Journal! Also some of those posts were the best writing I've ever done, according to some people, so I would never want to delete anything, but I did start thinking of the whole idea of a "chapter" of one's life being over. So, I made my whole LJ friends-only from the beginning until this month and decided that if you want to read what are now essentially my memoirs, you have to actually be a friend in some capacity or (god forbid because it would mean I was dead) a publisher with good intentions.
I plan to redesign my site soon anyway and it won't be as blog-centric, I don't think. I think I'm gonna wipe out that blog archive (because anything worth saving is on LJ and the site archive only starts in 2007 anyway) and make Medium and Patreon the only writing connected to it, with the focus being on Patreon because a community is (very very slowly) growing there and I want to encourage that. I like Patreon. A lot. I like posting there. And if Patreon goes tits up and all that content goes *poof!*? So be it! I'm trying to be a little less obsessed with permanence.
LJ is gonna be an LJ. If I'm emotional and need to write something out in LJ, I'm gonna do that. It may be public, it may be friends-only, it may be filtered - that's up to me - because it all depends on what I'm trying to work out. Writing has always been a way for me to work out my emotions and nothing more. LJ is like a workbook, and I've just always shown my work. I probably still will.
The reason I don't write as much as I used to has a lot to do with medication and therapy. I just don't need writing as an outlet as much as I used to. People tell me I should write more, but liiiiike, about what? And where? No one cares what I have to say about anything and the people who do are usually the wrong people. I've been watching what happens to women online who do dare to say anything about anything and I don't need that shit. I try to avoid all forms of confrontation and people on the internet are so ready to fight rather than discuss, that I'd rather just stay out of it altogether except within my own circle of friends.
Patreon works for my current writing habits. I post there at no charge 10-20 times a month with a mix of public and patrons-only posts. Mostly about art stuff but also about social media stuff and mental health stuff. If there were more interaction, I would probably post there the same as I used to post here because it reminds me a lot of the way LJ used to be. This isn't a post to "sell" you on Patreon, it's just to say that that's where you're more likely to find me these days than here and if I'm here, you probably have to be a friend of mine to see what I'm laying down because it's likely real shit.
Speaking of Patreon, I'm having a FREE adult colouring contest right now:
The prize is this painting:
To enter, go here and download the colouring page, then follow the directions.
Here are some of the entries so far. Go to my Facebook page to vote for your favourites!
So yeah, that's all I have to really say about my "internet life" so to speak, except that last month I screwed around with broadcasting on Periscope, which I liked a lot a lot a lot, but it would be impossible to show myself drawing on there or anything, with any clarity, and I'd never know if people were saying anything to me. People tell me there's Twitch, but I don't wanna deal with a bunch of kids who are there for gaming. I haven't really looked into it yet, to be honest. There's always MFC but I want to take money and nudity out of the equation completely. That's what I liked about Periscope, that people didn't come in with the assumption they're there for the express purpose of negotiating their way to seeing your tits. That's why I don't want to cam on MFC. The base function of the site may be a simple cam portal but the base assumption of its community is "sexy fun and commerce". I dunno. I'd reeeeeally have to be talked into that one.
Anyway, that is all I have to say. I hope you're having a lovely day and if you watch cams somewhere, tell me where! :o)
Anyway...
The subject of Live Journal came up and everyone's reaction was the same: "OH!" along with the cringiest face imaginable. Then came the lamenting of how awful they all used to be, but how funny at the same time. My friend Mike, who I consider a pretty smart person with a level head who also shares my passion for passion, said that he printed his out and he deleted his LJ. He read it and laughed at how dumb he was, put it on a shelf and that chapter of his life is over. So moving right along...
This stuck with me.
At first I was aghast at the idea. My first post in this LJ was made July 12th, 2001 and I've written almost 6000 entries that average about 2000 words each. It would be impossible to print my Live Journal! Also some of those posts were the best writing I've ever done, according to some people, so I would never want to delete anything, but I did start thinking of the whole idea of a "chapter" of one's life being over. So, I made my whole LJ friends-only from the beginning until this month and decided that if you want to read what are now essentially my memoirs, you have to actually be a friend in some capacity or (god forbid because it would mean I was dead) a publisher with good intentions.
I plan to redesign my site soon anyway and it won't be as blog-centric, I don't think. I think I'm gonna wipe out that blog archive (because anything worth saving is on LJ and the site archive only starts in 2007 anyway) and make Medium and Patreon the only writing connected to it, with the focus being on Patreon because a community is (very very slowly) growing there and I want to encourage that. I like Patreon. A lot. I like posting there. And if Patreon goes tits up and all that content goes *poof!*? So be it! I'm trying to be a little less obsessed with permanence.
LJ is gonna be an LJ. If I'm emotional and need to write something out in LJ, I'm gonna do that. It may be public, it may be friends-only, it may be filtered - that's up to me - because it all depends on what I'm trying to work out. Writing has always been a way for me to work out my emotions and nothing more. LJ is like a workbook, and I've just always shown my work. I probably still will.
The reason I don't write as much as I used to has a lot to do with medication and therapy. I just don't need writing as an outlet as much as I used to. People tell me I should write more, but liiiiike, about what? And where? No one cares what I have to say about anything and the people who do are usually the wrong people. I've been watching what happens to women online who do dare to say anything about anything and I don't need that shit. I try to avoid all forms of confrontation and people on the internet are so ready to fight rather than discuss, that I'd rather just stay out of it altogether except within my own circle of friends.
Patreon works for my current writing habits. I post there at no charge 10-20 times a month with a mix of public and patrons-only posts. Mostly about art stuff but also about social media stuff and mental health stuff. If there were more interaction, I would probably post there the same as I used to post here because it reminds me a lot of the way LJ used to be. This isn't a post to "sell" you on Patreon, it's just to say that that's where you're more likely to find me these days than here and if I'm here, you probably have to be a friend of mine to see what I'm laying down because it's likely real shit.
Speaking of Patreon, I'm having a FREE adult colouring contest right now:
The prize is this painting:
To enter, go here and download the colouring page, then follow the directions.
Here are some of the entries so far. Go to my Facebook page to vote for your favourites!
So yeah, that's all I have to really say about my "internet life" so to speak, except that last month I screwed around with broadcasting on Periscope, which I liked a lot a lot a lot, but it would be impossible to show myself drawing on there or anything, with any clarity, and I'd never know if people were saying anything to me. People tell me there's Twitch, but I don't wanna deal with a bunch of kids who are there for gaming. I haven't really looked into it yet, to be honest. There's always MFC but I want to take money and nudity out of the equation completely. That's what I liked about Periscope, that people didn't come in with the assumption they're there for the express purpose of negotiating their way to seeing your tits. That's why I don't want to cam on MFC. The base function of the site may be a simple cam portal but the base assumption of its community is "sexy fun and commerce". I dunno. I'd reeeeeally have to be talked into that one.
Anyway, that is all I have to say. I hope you're having a lovely day and if you watch cams somewhere, tell me where! :o)
